crap

finally there was some sanity saving alone time for myself, to sink down and tidy up my unsorted feelings. Disappointment and exhaustion had gotten the best of me. and i quickly rubbed my hand across my cheek, and sure enough traitor tears were there, betraying me. I wondered was i having multiple personality disorder. Why was my temper hardwiring to my tear ducts. Such a humiliating tendency. Perhaps i should stop over estimating myself. I was just the petty someone by the roadside.

Just let me sinking for these moment okay. and i got really better after keep repeating "it ends tonight" by the all-american rejects with the loudest volume i dunno why. Brother always assured me that "commitment" and "determination" were not merely concepts. They were a reality. Just kept holding on. Move along. I knew jas Ee cory and sc were striving very hard to overcome obstacles every single day all the way in Aus, Tokyo, and Sg. So i wont be giving up as well. Jia you ♥