I think I am a young lady who is needy. I am sad when my best friend dont whatsapp me enough. I constantly seek approval from my significant half. It seems I can not make a decision without consulting others. I feel guilty for growing up and wanting to be independent. All these relationships have turned me into some level of co-dependency which I shall name these as "addiction to love" which typically involves an imbalance in relationship..I requires most energy, attention and affection..to make myself feeling belonging and to fulfill my emotional needs. But I know I need a kind of healthier means of fulfillment.

At times I think there's sth wrong with myself and I try to change and alter my behaviors. Am I not pouring enough concern to my friends? Or am I overly hooked up with my work? I'd turned down a trip invitation from a friend of mine recently and I am really sorry about it. I am haunted with aqua phobia. My last experience at Redang island wasn't a pleasant one and I am terrified, truly. Those moments keep tangling in my mind and it keeps me puzzled. I can feel the dissapointment from my friend as well as the coldness. I try to work on the friendship but I can never control how my friend will respond.

I am sorry.