I have so much to say. Hence I'd signed in to my blog. and yet, I cant find word to speak for my mind. Because even if I'd blurted it out, its not going to help on the situation. Because I have no control over my emotional well-being. I feel ecstatic when good things happen and I feel depressed when things go wrong. Roller coaster ride. Sometimes up. Sometimes way down. and I know I need to take a change of my life.  I had been chasing a vague idea of happiness where I always mistakenly thought I'd needed sth to make my life complete. and I am truly wrong. I eventually realize that even when you get everything that's supposed to make you happy, life will still have ups and downs. If you look hard enough, you will still find reasons to be miserable..Wanting more is fine, but sometimes you need to relax and forget about it.