unique quality and gift

At times I find myself accidentally drowning into the ANT infestation, or you call that Automatic-Negative-Thought. So I try really hard to look into the monster eyes and figure out the root cause for my limiting beliefs. and I find myself that I am always focusing and preparing for all the bad things that "could" happen and it promotes my anxiety and magnifies my worry. Think another way round, I am using my imagination to tell stories, just that it often falls on the negative side.

The truth is, I am fallible. and the BIG news is, we are all fallible. We all make mistakes. But confident ppl carry themselves in a diff way than others. They earn respect. They command attention. They attract success. and what enticed and inspired me much after I'd joined Intel for the past 5 weeks are those colleagues who often showed those unique qualities and gifts.

and another truth is I am struggling from low self-esteem when I come across that I act and behave like a kid. So one of my most common technique used for building self-esteem is the use of affirmation. Affirmation are things you tell urself on a regular basis to affirm ur personal strength and value. So when I'd a problem forefront in my head, I start to write it up. Like now. Nobody will read it. I wont even read it. Its simply a method to get those thoughts out of my head.

So ever since I started "brain dumping", I become a big believer in its power :) Because I think every little morsel of our brain is a valuable real estate. Part of our brain holds the knowledge we will use to solve problems. Part of our brain holds thoughts and feelings of excitement and happiness. Part of our brain holds the potential for creativity. So the more space in my brain that is taken up by worry, sadness, and frustration, the less space I'd for positive growth.