regrets of the dying

I'd recently read this article called " Regrets of the Dying " which I found to be breathtaking. The author works for many years at the palliative care, with patients on their dying bed, and this article synthesizes the common regrets these ppl have.

as time goes by ppl are having some worries too. and these are all I could think of.

• getting old and highly aware of passing time
• getting sick and highly aware of fragility
• seriously contemplating their lives and death for some reasons

We all know the only solution is to stop saying : I WISH I DID WHAT I WANT instead of what others wanted me to do. But as I'd said in the previous post, most ppl are insane including me where often we keep repeating the same thing over and over again while expecting the diff results so hey ya we are in the same routine recycling :)

Often ppl are telling that

" I wish I didn't study in Engineering because my family wanted me to do so. I wish I'd chosen Mass Com instead, which is my real passion.... "

" I wish I didn't get married so fast because all my friends were getting married expecting me to do the same thing soon. I wish I'd stayed single longer.... "

sounds familiar right? hahaha

Sometimes life is throwing us a curve ball that leading us to temporarily become someone other than who we really are. But inside, we're all good ppl. I think you are a good person too. We just have yet unleashing our inner BEAST on others. You are just way tooooo true to your values and voice, not wanted to break the layer of who you are because it is always hard to stay behind a facade that would shatter.

I am still learning not to fret about the past which I can't change and not overly concern with future which will show itself in due time. Focus on right now, this moment =) Distractions and annoyances are really plentiful but just dont let these minor things get under our skin. Nth is forever so take time to be thankful =D

Too bad the ability to stay positive cant be bought in a store and I am so glad that I'd attended a talk called 道与教的分析 ytday night that inspire me a lot. Days have been interesting. I'd started to gain momentum to storm through the ton of work, final year project, piling up lecture notes, assignments, real work out for badminton with fellow course mates which are truly fun and frolic, pulling out for parties, and it really makes me feeling good as a final year student =)

World is as big as you allow it to be.

xoxo

lets get enticed !!

I am back, feeling fresh after battery recharging. Home is always a place where you can close the door and get away from it all. I have some hard time gotten over the hurdle, for many it is a massive hurdle indeed. and right now, I am having the strong positive energy to turn miserable and morose to happy, fun and frolic. The choice is mine. and I am choosing the one that makes me feeling more confident, and better overall. ( hopefully it is not some kind of self delusion nor being pollyanna but a concious decision to look at things positively =D )

Okay in order to study SMARTER play HARDER, I shall really look into task prioritization and time management. Being ENTICED! yea I know it is not enough just to do them by going thru all those motions. Because things are not going to get any better. You know what, ppl rarely change. It is the unfortunate regrettable truth. We often say that insanity is doing the same thing over and over again...and expecting diff results but nevertheless, we keep doing the same thing over and over again while expecting diff results lol !

So, according to this definition, MOST PPL ARE INSANE. yes my life isn't going to get better because I am insane too =D )

so people, lets make a move and quit this game. I'd been a lil lost in the past 4 weeks and now I am back !

say cheeseee i love laughing :D

because laughter not only makes me feeling good, but it is also cement to relationship regardless friendship and family love. The truth is nothing feels much better than seeing the one you love break out into a huge grin and start laughing and laughing until they'd lost their breath. So why dont share your sense of humor with me :)

happy birthday to you

I read from a book. It states that the best way for a man to rmb his wife's bday is to forget it ONCE. Well it makes corner of my lips curling up managing a big smile while staring at the sentence. I dont know what will I do if my future husband happens to forget bout my bday. Its not like a really big deal though. I'd never celebrated my bday until I was 17. We dont have bday celebration trend in our family.I mean those typical birthday activities like making a wish and blowing candles on cake. But we do claiming our birthday presents from parents :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you !! :)

the best we are

There are things that ppl do when they are 18. and quit doing it when they are 22.

when ppl are 18, their emotions are driven by ppl they like.

and when ppl are 22, they start to see the true value of others, conquer daily, repair characters, and make themselves necessary. Ideally. But sometimes they'd lied to themselves about the lack of power and they'd forgotten that they believe in a lie.

Fortunately, they are blessed with the ability to step back from their thoughts.

Often we think that we are qualified for more than we're getting from life. But we are wrong. Many ppl think that "Law Of Attraction" is a get-rich-quick scheme. Just sit at home, dream on some stuff and "poof" a magically dream life appears. Hopefully you know this is far-far from the truth. Very FAR !

I used to complain a lot. But I am getting rid of it though sometimes I do complaining, still :( (but more to manja lah *grinning* ) I think what we are attracted are what we're qualified for, its what we deserve. What we get is what we are, after all. Its scientific. Its mathematical.

We are not unlucky. We just have yet to improve into the better person who attracts all the things that we want from our lives. Well, the unpopular truth is, we are 100% responsible on what's going on in our lives. and I am lucky to have someone I could vent the bottled feelings and the advices you share are always kept in my mind. I might struggle, but one day I will survive and do a very good job :)

birthday

La Gomera at Neo Damansara :)

the birthday girl :)

and the camera person elaine

and i am full after two plates of food. lousy appetite huh

tiramisu

happy turning 23 zhihan :)

photo shooting after dinner. Ashley is happily being the model with her coach beg :P

Halloween eve

kiwi taohueh with milk

Charles and Keith :)

Sunway

heading for our late dinner at Ole Ole Bali

camera face detection app detected it as well..

blended papaya honeydew mint

taste of Balinese cuisine. lifestyle of Balinese interiors. A classical Balinese restaurant :)

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Currently

Blind

by Lifehouse

extension cord in my room has officially spoilt. well, the power plug too.

Spanish buffet dinner at La Gomera, Neo Damansara.

Will update more on the food as well as the Halloween eve dinner at ole ole bali, sunway.

signing off. I thought I am not fragile and naive as I used to be. Oh well, I think I still have long way to go. and I just wanna curl into a ball, and be manja, just for tonight? and the next day, I am still the iron lady wanna-be. Just appreciate the grey shades around us. After all, life is not black and white, ppl are not good and bad, beliefs are not wrong or right. Sometimes, feeling could be a lil weak.

Remembered the horror novel that we used to read back in the old times when we were in school? "The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde" by Robert Louis Stevenson. Its a story about the kind scientist Dr. Jekyll who starts experimenting upon himself and ends up unleashing the worst of his personality and physically transform into his evil alter ago, Mr. Hyde. Hyde eventually overcomes the doctor and commits horrible crime for which Jekyll must shoulder the responsibility. So its mainly about the dual personalities for human beings.

Anyway, once again its time for the Hallow's eve where I am picturing how pumpkins are turning up at the doorstep and little children are dressing like ghosts and pop stars. and not to forget the witching hour where in medieval time, it is believed to be a time of magic when witches took the to the sky and abducted children foolish enough to wander out after dark. oh ya, zombie, the reanimated corpse in the supernatural world which infused with magical energy. last but not least, the monkey where i am missing it right now :)

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blissful morning after sleep deprivation for a couple of nights with messy hair and dark eye circle.

I am always interested in learning some lingo and major concept in financial world and stock market. It is intimidating, somehow, it gives the perception where the reward is overweight than the required effort if and only if you find the best investment strategies that suit you the best. At least I dont have to allow bank, boss, or investment professionals to push my money in directions that I dont understand. No one is in the best position than myself, right? :)

random

An emotional power struggle. I dont need chocolate strawberry nor primo beverage on the coffee table in front of me. I feel like doing a bit of travelling..say, across town, to that little bookstore with espresso bar I'd been dying to peruse. I am allergic to caffeine though. Sometimes I feel the world is in the mood Im in on a daily basis..unpredictable, spontaneous, and higly susceptible to doing whatever that strikes my fancy just as soon as it occurs to me. It would be more than just a soft touch of intense romance :)

Well, i think making a compromise is not the same thing as conceding defeat. Its a mature move.

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At times the insecurities in the defeated mind leave me in the big black hole.

At times I have no fear of situations where I have no choice but to become totally and completely involved.

hmm..personality disorder :)

happy birthday :)

 

favorite fried Mac & Cheese :)