I wake in the morning
Tired of sleeping
Get in the shower

And make my bed alone
I put on my makeup
Talking to the mirror
Ready for a new day
Without you

And i walk steady on my feet

I talk my voice obeys me
I go out at night
Sleep without the lights
And i do all of the things
I have to keeping you off my mind
But when i think i'll be alright
I am always wrong cause

My hands
Don't wanna start again

My hands
No they don't wanna understand

My hands
They just shake and try to break
whatever peace i may find

My hands
They only agree to hold
Your hands
And they don't wanna be without
Your hands
And they will not let me go
No they will not let me go

I talk about you now
And go a day without crying
I go out with my friends now
I stay home all alone

I don't see you everywhere

I can say your name easily
I laugh a bit louder
Without you

And i see different shades now
And i'm almost never afraid now

But when i think i'll be okay
I am always wrong now

Sometimes i wake and see them reaching out for you
Quietly breaking whatever shields
I spent so long building up
I cannot fake, cos when they cry i'm unspoken
They miss holding my baby

week3

sometimes you just got this feeling for pulling a disappearing act. I got tired recently, running nose and a little of coughing. and the brain had worked really slow due to the medic i took, which i deliberately be my own doctor and took a couple of pills.







finally i am able to proceed to level 2, and that thrills me up :)

well, i just felt like some days it's like my emotions just stagnate. Just don't read into it much.



surprise chocked me when there was this cute Tupperware by my school bag outside library this evening. and i was surprised by the phone message too. Thanks ! you always my best friend :)

Indulging your emotions is fine, but don't dwell in sadness. It's not becoming.

ear candy

Time, is going by, so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of here with you
Now I'm wondering why I've kept this bottled inside
So I'm starting to regret not selling all of it to you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
You're never gonna be alone, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands
'Cause forever I believe
That there's nothing I could need but you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

Oh, you've gotta live every single day
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away, could be our only one
You know it's only just begun, every single day
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes

Time is going by so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

I'm gonna be there always
I won't be missing a word all day
I'm gonna be there always
I won't be missing a word all day

最近旧曲回味 xD

week3

and she had just wasted 13 bugs for a very tak boleh movie on the beautiful friday night. But she was still overjoyed for spending the night together with the person who was comfortable to be around.

There's always nothing like silly slapstick or pooh-pooh humor to help her taking life a little less seriously. For a while, at least.

Everytime she had accidentally letting the negative depressing words typed out in the post, after a moment to compose herself, she would just press the backspace button.

anyway, I shall conclude today as a beautiful day. Because i had a phone conversation for an hour with a friend, calling all the way from France :)

Perceived lack of excitement recently perhaps? Or I was just get drunk by the routine.

.

week3

So wanna switch my focus from matters of the heart to analytical data, numbers and dates!

going to be a 21-year-old lady so soon and please behave like an adult that have 21-year-old maturity.


Days get hectic. I took a subject for epsilon year and it ended up jumbling up all my lecture class time table. 3 lab sessions in 2 days. Scratching head, I dont know how to arrange or switch the lecture class as well as tutorials.


today i had just completed my very first beginner level japanese language proficiency test. Next week onwards, two classes every week for proceeding japanese language level.

頑張ってください

日新日新又日新！

Asian Youth Ambassador Awards (AYA)

interview session on the stage.
i never know my big brother is really a good speaker :)



big brother gets Most Outstanding Youth Award 2009 at KLPac


interviewed by 8tv


press conference after the ceremony.
winner of Most Outstanding Youth Award. the president. winner of Youth Friendly Company-- AFS


janet and I :))


current and former accenture-ians
finger cross I'll be joining the same company like u-- Accenture boleh^^

week2

delighted by a very good saturday. and its a good start. i feel contented. I had been struggling to leave an old habit behind and yearn for a stronger and determined heart. Positive reinforcement is headed. I knew I'll be okay sooner or later, just a little surge of determination and confidence. That's all i needed.

I'll see my eldest brother stepped into the spotlight and give his best performance tml night. He always captured the leading role.He always knew what he wanted. will attend the ceremony tml. He is the finalist for most outstanding youth award.

I wished one day I'll be as strong as him.



ps. love lily allen

things heal as time goes on

oh i am so delighted by an inspiring word right now. There was a sharing during cyberpreneurship lecture class. This was the first time i had my class at Faculty Of Management lecture hall and its truly awesome having fantastic and comfortable environment.

A girl from Taylor said : " i was an ordinary student who did an extraordinary decision " This girl who perhaps having the age same around with me had started her journey to be trained in entrepreneurship field.

Well all i wanna say was, the speaker, invited by lecturer, spoke really persuasive and attractive ! and it projected how much maturity and passion of him on dare to dream.

sometimes, our dull routine is a source of comfort. But today i catch a glimpse of that depth today when this speaker impresses me and serves as an inspiration :D



ps. Shame on me that i never play Uno before !

lovely voice they have, enjoy!




Hmm...

Ooh...ooh...





All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop

Oh baby, tell me why♥d you have to go

♥Cause this pain I feel it won♥t go away

And today I♥m officially missin♥ you





I thought that from this heartache, I could escape

But I♥ve fronted long enough to know

There ain♥t no way

And today I♥m officially missing you





Ooh...can♥t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I♥m officially...





All I do is lay around, 2 years full of tears

From looking at your face on the wall

Just a week ago you were my baby

Now I don♥t even know you at all, I don♥t know you at

all





Well, I wish that you would call me right now

So that I could get through to you somehow

But I guess it♥s safe to say, baby, safe to say

that I-I♥m officially missin♥ you





Ooh...can♥t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I♥m officially





Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby

But I see there♥s something I just can♥t do

From the way you would hold me

To the sweet things you told me

I just can♥t find a way to let go of you





Ooh...can♥t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I♥m officially...





It♥s official

Hoo, you know that I♥m missin♥ you, yeah, yes

All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah

And I-I♥m officially missin♥ you

week2

I always thought this trimester is going to be easy. But I was so wrong after today's Digital System lecture class. Lecturer just informed us that there will be no more lab sessions like we used to have in the past 2 years. We attended the 3 hours lab sessions, did our experiments, jot down the results, and completed a lab reports a week after. But from this trimester onwards, we were appointed to complete mini project. which means we have to write out programming code, do our hardware, present it, and not to forget a beautiful report. So hey ya will have to be in the lab again for every tuesday and thursday.
Turning attention towards resolving unfinished business. Keeping yourself being occupied is always better than lingering around doing stupid things. :)

and today I really enjoyed my Electromagnetic Interference lecture class. The lecturer is talkative and funny.

You have a lot more energy because you are not fighting with yourself to play a role to fit in.

ps. I think i love Mandy Moore recently

week1

Excitement was always there on the first day of school. In fact, the first week of delta second sem was truly relaxing and fun. I enjoyed having my good friends around and sharing the juicy tidbit of petty topics, where the conversation flowed from the weather to food, that random ;)

Just that I had tried to make an effort to pay attention in class. It wasn't easy though. I was so used to turn everything out. My ears felt stopped up. This the sight effect after having the brain to be mulfunction after 2 weeks break :)

Things must be fun. My routine would only start to get more exciting and interesting once I start to appreciate it. I stopped stirring up the string of complaints that I so cant wait for my graduation when I noticed I had ONLY ANOTHER 5 TRIMESTER to my graduation. I dont think I had the capability to venture the working world yet. I am just completely honest with myself.

and I really had these undescribable feeling bubbling in my throat in this trimester. Because its gonna be different after this. Some of my friends are graduating, having the very last trimester in MMU. But I understand its a phase of growth in life, and its emerging :)

last but not least, its gonna be a good November. Good movies, Avril's new album, basketball, its gonna be truly fun !

张惠妹 - 掉了
作词∶吴青峰 作曲∶吴青峰
心疼的玫瑰 半夜还开著
找不到匆匆掉落的花蕊
回到现场却已来不及
等待任何回音都不可得
微弱的风筝 冬天里飘著
回不去手中缠线的那个
没有蓝天 又何必去飞 怎么适合
黑色笑靥掉了 雪白眼泪掉了
该出现的所有表情瞬间掉了
瞳孔没有颜色 结了冰的长河
回忆是最可怕的敌人
故事情节掉了 主角对白掉了
该属于剧中的对脚戏也掉了
胸口没有快乐 断了翅的白鸽
不枯萎的藉口全掉了
曾经唱过的歌 分享过的笑声
在心中不断拉扯
想念不能承认 偷偷擦去泪痕
冬天过了还是会很冷
黑色笑靥掉了 雪白眼泪掉了
该出现的所有表情瞬间掉了
瞳孔没有颜色 结了冰的长河
回忆是最可怕的敌人
故事情节掉了 主角对白掉了
该属于剧中的对脚戏也掉了
胸口没有快乐 断了翅的白鸽
不枯萎的藉口全掉了


aint a fan of her, but i think her vocal delivery suits this song very much