Remembered the horror novel that we used to read back in the old times when we were in school? "The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde" by Robert Louis Stevenson. Its a story about the kind scientist Dr. Jekyll who starts experimenting upon himself and ends up unleashing the worst of his personality and physically transform into his evil alter ago, Mr. Hyde. Hyde eventually overcomes the doctor and commits horrible crime for which Jekyll must shoulder the responsibility. So its mainly about the dual personalities for human beings.

Anyway, once again its time for the Hallow's eve where I am picturing how pumpkins are turning up at the doorstep and little children are dressing like ghosts and pop stars. and not to forget the witching hour where in medieval time, it is believed to be a time of magic when witches took the to the sky and abducted children foolish enough to wander out after dark. oh ya, zombie, the reanimated corpse in the supernatural world which infused with magical energy. last but not least, the monkey where i am missing it right now :)

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blissful morning after sleep deprivation for a couple of nights with messy hair and dark eye circle.

I am always interested in learning some lingo and major concept in financial world and stock market. It is intimidating, somehow, it gives the perception where the reward is overweight than the required effort if and only if you find the best investment strategies that suit you the best. At least I dont have to allow bank, boss, or investment professionals to push my money in directions that I dont understand. No one is in the best position than myself, right? :)

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An emotional power struggle. I dont need chocolate strawberry nor primo beverage on the coffee table in front of me. I feel like doing a bit of travelling..say, across town, to that little bookstore with espresso bar I'd been dying to peruse. I am allergic to caffeine though. Sometimes I feel the world is in the mood Im in on a daily basis..unpredictable, spontaneous, and higly susceptible to doing whatever that strikes my fancy just as soon as it occurs to me. It would be more than just a soft touch of intense romance :)

Well, i think making a compromise is not the same thing as conceding defeat. Its a mature move.

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At times the insecurities in the defeated mind leave me in the big black hole.

At times I have no fear of situations where I have no choice but to become totally and completely involved.

hmm..personality disorder :)

happy birthday :)

 

favorite fried Mac & Cheese :)

KMCO annual dinner 2010

Date : 15 October 2010

Venue : Equatorial Hotel, Penang

Yesterday night was a wonderful memory. I feel happy catching up with them. Performance by dancers throughout the night is marvelous. and we get to see our managers dancing on the stage :) We had some drinking session after annual dinner. and, how lucky I am to get a Panasonic 32’ LCD tv as my lucky draw.

Putting myself in a new frame of mind, its like putting myself into a new situation. Heading back to cyberjaya tomorrow morning after 5 months. I believe the best is yet to come.

Memories will buoy my confidence today and spark some much-needed confidence. As time goes by, I wanna be good in negotiating between conflict interest.

We might have tons of holes in our social calendar and we are trying hard to fill it up with dates, parties, vacations, just to ignore the feeling of being lonely but no one know about you but urself.

There are tons of emotions in our heart and they might be confusing to us. But this is life :) Instead of reacting to our feelings, start dissecting them. If you are stubborn soul like me whose always without solid reason to hold on, let’s change the mindset together :)

I think, after these 5 months, I am not as fragile and naive as I used to be. I am not keeping it all to myself. Peace comes with acceptance.

Like everyone, there are definitely moments when you feel the need to indulge urself in some quality time alone. Completely alone. You wont feel lonely at all while you're at it, either. You may get it all in just one evening..Sit down with my scrapbook, whatever that reminds me of the good old days and allow myself to reminisce.

The best is yet to come :)

i miss how u sing the song :)

i dont wanna let bygones be bygones

I could still recall the very first day I’d started my practical training. I was sitting alone at the lobby. The memory is still tangling.

Meeting with new ppl, when it comes to showing someone how much I care, I was like a little kid. I’ll do anything it takes to ensure they get the msg, straight out.

The pace of my life is about to slow down quite a bit when it ends today.

Well, it always take a minute to say hello and forever to say goodbye. Dont be dismayed at goodbyes. A farewell is necessary before we meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetimes, is certain for those who are friends :)

6 october 2010. Farewell with BA :)

7 october 2010. Farewell with CAM :)

8 october 2010. Farewell with MHS :)

cu guys again on coming friday night :D

ps. How lucky that u makes it so hard for me to say goodbye to you lao gao :)

oh well..its touch and go..

I know I have changed, especially when it is not negotiated by me and myself. Sharing bout urself is always difficult, but essential, perhaps? I'd done my best to maintain the delicate balance. Sometimes, being too rational and analytical will just make you losing respect for ur emotional truth.

That doesn't mean changes is unpleasant. If you could adapt, wonderful is a given. Things keep shifting. and these alterations might require painful or at least slightly uncomfortable adjustments on parts.

Feverish. I felt the tightness of emotion compressing my lung as I inhaled deeply.

 

 

Daorae at Crystal point on sunday night :)

a cheerful encounter, introducing much of joy and warm. It is topping on current emotional sundae :) Had been really busy these days. Heavy workloads. and indulge in laughters with the ppl who are comfortable with. I would say, these days are one of the most memorable and good moments in my life.

lastly, a song recommended by laogao :) It is just very relaxing when u sink down in the seat after hours of badminton while a soothing texture of voice that calms u down and we are on the way for good food :)